Dunno where to start.. just seems like a lot of things that I wanna say.. this blog would be the longest and most 感触的blog… so please bear with me.. if u give up reading half way, please continue the next time u read my blog kies? =P finally going back to school after a whole week of rest.. missed my bus!!! So… late for school AGAiNZ!! But I bluff the guard again… say I year 2… lolx… gave out oreos and rhe coasters I’ve made.. sorrie… din have enough materials and time to make for the whole class… have bought enough coasters but the plastic thingy not enough… actually wanted to buy 奶嘴wan.. cos more cute… but… financial crisis… if nvr go sch, no pocket money… so.. haha… nx time den give… J lolx.. hmm… anyways… need to apologise to sock.. sorrie… missed u out.. really sorrie… urs I pass u on the day we return to school for lecture kies? As for the rest of the class… pls have some patience.. I’ll make when I have the time… hmm… gp lecture was regarded as quite a failure to me today.. cos.. most of the students in the LT had no interest in listening to the tutors.. me as well… I was chatting wif cheetat.. from our chat, I found out some stuff from him and I really do feel the same as him… I also shared my experience, my stories.. I can say that he’s quite a good listener… I think.. is really a matter if whether we are able to take some time off, listen and chat with ppl around us.. because, we will really be able to discover a lot a lot from them and really understand how they think, how they feel..

Got back results finally after whole day of waiting.. waiting for gp lecture to end, waiting for their MST for OP to end, waiting for principal talk to end.. we went to the CT class (Lep classroom) mr pang told us to share abt our feelings abt the class, abt our whole year’s experience.. I noe that wad I’ve said was rather –ve.. saying that I feel our class is not as bonded compared to my previous class 04S6C.. but.. wad I say is really wad I feel honestly.. I feel that sharing sessions should really be true.. else, it will not be a true sharing session, only will consist of lies… serene cried after her sharing and our class fell into a sorrow mood… kaijia started crying too… I was rather sad as well.. because partings are always sorrow.. but I did not tear.. I put a strong front.. this does not mean that I do not really care about them being able to promote or not… it matters to me as well.. but I really do not wan to add on to the type of atmosphere.. I feel that crying is just a way to express our deepest feelings and thoughts.. it makes us feel better.. but I feel that these shd be kept at home.. crying is like smiling.. is affective.. contagious.. I noe that u may say hui fang n justina may not be as close to me.. but think of it as a big picture.. put urself in their shoes.. they may be able to accept the fact and do not wan to cry, they wan to put a strong front too.. they wan to face all these courageously… but when frenz around them start to tear, they will feel the same.. they will feel the pain.. the pain to part with the rest.. and soon… 大家都不能勇敢的面对.. from my experience last year… I feel that as frenz… tearing is just a way of expressing 舍不得.. if u really wan to show u care, u cherish hui fang or justina or both, there’s always better methods to show… give them ur support.. be there for them.. now and future.. that will make them and u feel better… all of u can be stronger.. the bond will also grow closer.. during festive seasons, special occasions, birthdays, send them greetings.. let them noe u remember them.. class outings, chalets..etc ask them to join… make them feel that they are still a part of us… this would be much better than crying over the matter… treat as the 2 of them are just transferred to another class for lessons.. the only difference is just that u wun be able to attend lessons together, but there are ways to meet up during breaks and after school.. treat this as a “long-distance” relationship…　这是你们友情的考验，让她们知道你们的友情是经得起考验的。

Maybe is because of so much I’ve been through… I learn to see things In a different way.. do not take things as hard as I used to be… my dear shd be glad rite? Finally see a mature side of me.. =) always, I’ve see myself as a big sister in this class.. I see a responsibility to carry out.. sound rather bhb.. but ya.. this is really true… I hope to see the class grow… I noe that it is really a huge task… there is a need to break the cliques up.. we need class outings… I’ve tried making the class shirt… that took really a long time to settle down with the final design as it is really difficult to suit the taste of everyone.. *sigh* thank you cards to teachers, birthday cards to teachers.. always will be brought by me (if I remember too…) teachers day gifts.. all last min stuff.. cliques celebrate birthdays within their cliques themselves, not as a class… to be real honest, I feel that this class sometimes is really a selfish lot… they only see their group of frenz… they dun see a class… I’m like always the santa claus… bringing sweets, oreos.. passing around the class… simple things like that… u may not realize the imptance now.. but is part of bonding… it shows that hey.. at least someone remembers the existence of the class.. not just sharing the things within their clique… I’m not trying to make myself sound that 伟大.. just wan to bring out that lil tots do make a difference… I really love my class last year… during valentines… they make gifts… stars, lollipops..etc for the whole class… these create a sense of belonging my dear frenz…. Guys can also do things like that… we wun mistake u for being sissy or pervert… is just a simple way of expressing u care… if u are not willing to part with ur money, u can jolly well write lil note to everyone in the class.. encourage them.. gifts are really nice… everyone likes to receive gifts don’t u think so? Many times, I really feel like giving up on this class… dun wan to show any appreciation to anyone anymore… thinking that all the efforts will be put to waste.. wad is the point of doing all these.. no one will change their view, their mindset… they will still stick to their clique.. they will nvr be like a class.. but.. I always change my thinking in the end… because.. I hope to really see the change… I hope that as time passes, things will really change… I may not have tried hard enough….

My results are not very good… I need to catch up a lot…

Econs E

Maths O

CLA E

GP C6

But I accept this… because.. I feel that I have not tried and put in enough.. I noe I have a lot to do during this holiday besides having fun… I’ve started doing the extra math assignment for students who obtain a O or F in maths… the 2000 A lvl maths paper… met abit problems… but… I’m willing to continue to try… I wan to finish up all my sch stuff in November so as to really have the whole December for fun and for myself to revise… this is really different from last year where I slack and slack… I’ve changed…

Gonna continue my blog wif all the Chinese….. cos.. I think Chinese word can express feelings better.. esp the deepest thots…

人生是如此的，喜怒哀乐是我们都得经历的。昨天我全部都尝到了。喜，一年的辛苦终于结束乐。　大家终于能休息，准备明年更好的冲刺。怒，为Justina和huifang感到不公平。justina应该知道我指的是什么。哀，离别的惆怅，感伤。乐，放学后一起走，一起玩，一起疯。今天真的走了好多好多。从学校，kaijia, justina, connie and I 走到serangoon。搭147到clarke quay, 走过我常提起的monks看到对岸在拍戏，把在石头上的变色龙拍下，走到了esplanade看justina拍下美丽的 "postcard" (esplanade, merlion, etc), 又走到marina square看kaijia和connie吃板面, 一路上假装跌倒，看人打保龄球，送all of them 到cityhall station to take train home, 本想回家，但又掉头走到suntec city 走了2-3个小时。不知道为什么，就一直想这样子走下去，不想停步。不觉得累也不觉得饿。竟然一个人走到八点多才搭196回家。到家已经是大概九点了。好久都没像今天这样痛快的走了。大家常说这是浪费时间，但我觉得很好，能想通很多。

今 天的一切好象 人生。一直走，一直走。能和朋友一起走也可以自己一个人走。有朋友时，走再远也不会寂寞，不会累。大家走远了，累了，就停一下休息。想我们人生一样，累了 就放松一下。有时候，我们会对围绕着我们的事情影响，被吸引像那对岸拍戏，我们会停下脚步看了后，还是得继续走下去。变色龙是提醒我们要在生活中懂得变 通，会随着环境成长，改变来保护自己。拍照像是在拍下记忆美丽的事物。假装跌倒是一种娱乐自己的事，让大家都大笑一场。回家是提醒我们，世上没有不散的宴 席。总有一天，我们会分开。自己一人走时，没有目标，没有喜怒哀乐。可说是。。。像个会走路的死人。很寂寞，没人在身边陪伴。I’ll always remember the walk today.

=) the pictures taken today, plus the videos, I’ll upload later cos this comp can’t do it, will change comp later and update.. =)