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Monday, March 27, 2006

gt back maths today.. sux! got less than half of wad i gt for promos last year. hate tis! worked harder for this blk test compared to last yr's promos lor... sickening maclaurins!!! spent most of my time on maclaurin.... yet....... din score for the qn much too!!!

econs mcq if less than 13 out of 20, need to go back to sch on sat to retake and this time round, have to score at leat 18 out of 20. ("great!!")

pain all day... also dunno wad pain.. sure not gastric pain... ate porridge for breakfast n lunch... just dunno wad to eat.. and no appetite.... sux!!!

mum said grandma tried to control her shitting today when mum fetch my sis -choy fong back to ntu.. when mum came home, MESS is wad she saw.. grandma only changed her top..(which i dun understand why she dirtied her bottom and yet she change her top and not her bottom) den she wore the dirty bottom and pretended to slp on the bed when mum comes home. mum found out because the toilet was still dirty and can smell "sth". mum persuaded her to bathe due to hygiene but she refused. dad's tone was abit more harsh when she tries to give excuses and tries to reason out with us..etc he insists that grandma bathe. she actually dragged the action of going to bathe from 10+am till abt 5+ evening la.. and yet she still wanna drag further... (dun she feel uncomfortable??) den she unwillingly go bathe.. while she take off her clothes, she curse n swear... *sighs* she's just getting lazier each day.. she bathe, also very lazy.. use right hand take soap, apply on left hand only, den rinse off and for her whole body, she just use water only... (is this call bathing????) i really dunno wad to say... mum's complaining.. every 2-3 days she will lose control over her bladder... actually.. she's merely being lazy, trying to wait till it's really urgent den go toilet. hope she can stop doing this.. mum's going crazy soon too.

lost control over myself just now. screamed.
had a sucky day today and dad couldn't stop irritating me. he just enjoy seeing me irritated la.
having all the bad news abt the results of blk test n having abdominal pain all day and stupid nose bleed again. so many so many stuff happening and he wanna irritate me further.... i can't stand all these and screamed that i'm gonna pack my things n leave home one of this day when i can't take it anymore. he's gettin on my nerves.

i broke down n cried. i din noe y i had such a reaction. just simply... i dunno la!! just dunno wad to say.

sometimes i wish my nose really is having a cancer.. maybe i'll get more care n concern from him instead of mere irritation. also.. i hope tat i'm diagnose with nose cancer and leave ny soon. can't stand the results i get and hearing all the ( -ve ) motivational speeches.
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one word to describe today.... SUX!!!!

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {8:53 PM}.
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asked my grandma to weigh herself today. guess wad? she weighs 28kg. *shocks* think she must be real careful if she walk on the streets with strong wind... (she'll fly....)

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {12:03 AM}.
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Friday, March 24, 2006

grandma is really testing my patience these days... wad she do and say is funny.. but irritates us at times when she gets stubborn.

days back.. she mentioned that she like to be mice in the nite, come out and hunt for food, so ask us to prepare a cup full of water for her to drink. when no one is around at home or if everyone is aslp, she will start her search. that time, she searched for ferrero rocher.. she ate and spit out the hazel nut. guess she tot that was the seed. lols.

recently, she had her new ways to amuse us again..

usually my uncle call her and would ask if she had eaten. now, she will do the same. she will ask my uncle if he had eaten. den usually, when my relatives come, they would ask her if she recall who is this and who is that. instead, that day, my uncle came and she ask my brother if he recall who is this(my uncle).. lols... she tests ppl now..

one nite, she woke up at least 4 occasions.. 1 am, 3am, 3+am, 4+am, 5+am..etc she walked from the room to the dining place where my parents will keep the lights on thru the nite in case we wanna go toilet or wad, den there's light. but grandma came out and play with the switches. she on the lights, den off. den she look at the lights. den she on again, and look at the lights and off again and look at the lights. she kept repeating the same actions for all occasions.. my parents saw everything. den, after this funny nite... she changed.

the next day when she wake up, all her memories are of my uncle's home. she tried looking for my uncle's clothes, look my my uncle's bathroom, the small walkway in my uncle's home, the black storeroom door, the black main door, the washing machine, the mandarin plant...etc. she nearly gone crazy. we explained to her that she is now at my home and these stuff are at my uncle's home.. she insists that she saw all these.. she say she water the plants everyday. and she washed my uncle's clothings, shower blinds..etc whole of last nite. den say now everything is missing. she's lost! i told her she wasn't washing anything last nite, yet was playing with the lights. but she is very stubborn.. and could not get anything i say into her head. *sighs*

den she scold my uncle early in the morning saying that he brought back other ppl's clothes for her to wash, wash until she is very tired. den say my uncle took her clothes to army for ppl to wear.. now her clothes are all missing. she kept thinking and thinking.. we just couldn't stop her. we ended up calling my uncle and ask him to talk to her, let her scold.. and yes. she did. but she still continue to scold even thou my uncle hung up the call.

another occasion. she told me she had alot of things to eat at my home. she say at the dining table, coffee table, all have things to eat. as well as in the room. i ask her " in the room? where got food?" she held on to her pillow and say "here(pillow)" den i told her that this(pillow) is pillow, nothing to eat inside. inside is cotton wool. she wun listen and insists that there's food inside. *sigh* i din argue anymore, she just wun listen.

den my uncle came, i ask her inside(pillow) got things to eat ar? she say no la.. inside is cotton wool, nothing to eat. heng that day my mum around, can be my eye-witness.. cos she really said that there's food in the pillow. now she said otherwise.. *angry*

she wanted to follow my uncle home, but my uncle lied and say he rode bike here, can't let her follow. den she very clever, ask him where is the helmet. den i too mine and lend him for show lor.. (cos he drove here) den she very clever again.. she say the helmet is my father wan, he lying. den my mum say my father wan in the bike box.. nvr bring up. den was all the commotion until my mum look outta the window and saw the ticket officer.. (giving ppl summon) my uncle quickly rushed down cos his coupon over time le.. den my grandma very clever again... she say " eh! u nvr take ur helmet" den okie... i took the helmet and went out.. (fake that i went to pass to him) until my grandma go back to slp, den i return home...

next day, she bathe early in the morning, wore her dentures and got herself prepared to go home.. thinking that my uncle wld bring her back that day. i ask her to eat noodles, she say dunwan, she ask me to heat up the lo mai kai in the fridge but there wasn't.. i talk her dun haf.. she she insist that there is. i explain and explain until my patience was to the limit, i told her. "grandma, there isn't any lo mai kai in the fridge, i say and u wun listen and wun believe, u go to the fridge and find, if u can find, i help and heat for u to eat" den she ignore me and say she wan to slp. hai! in the afternoon, she din eat.. she say she is going home(my uncle's home) den she wanna go home and eat. i wrote a letter to her explaining all the matters.. and her reaction after she read the letter was actually.. "ur handwriting is very nice.." instead of telling me she not going to go back to my uncle's home.. *frustrated* my aunt came and persuaded her not to go back.. den she say i wrote letter to her and said the same thing.. she ask if my aunt read the letter anot..and showed to my aunt.. den ended with saying my handwriting is very nice again.. my aunt had to work and left, and grandma continued to wait for my uncle whole day till about late evening.. my uncle brought all her clothes here.. her she say" aiyoh! why u bring ppl's clothes back for me to wash again!! i wash untill my back hurts that nite.." den he take out and show her.. den she change her statement.. " see? u take my clothes for ppl to wear.. now den bring back" den she din go home this nite too.. cos my uncle lied and say the lift spoil.. her legs inconvenient.. better not follow cos here 10 storey high.. den she agree to go back another day. she went back to her room and she saw the yellow dustbin beside the coffee table.. she tot was my younger sis's winnie the pooh.. she told us to put on the table.. my brother took the dustbin and show her that it is rubbish bin... den she laugh and say my brother silly.. she ask him to take the winnie the pooh, he take rubbish bin... she blur, still say he silly.. lolx..

she told my mum that she dreamt alot.. she dreamt that the eerie things..(ghost) told her she will die in future by jumping off from 11th storey. and she say she dreamt that my sis and i were fighting...etc my uncle's home have no window grills.. how can we assure that she will be safe there with such a dream? *sighs*

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {9:41 AM}.
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battle with econs monster ended. think this paper may score better than the other 2.. still sux. din finish my essay. anyway, yay!! battle has ended finally. help my darling shop for shaver after the econs battle. i have absolutely no idea which to buy. all look the same to me yet the price differs.. ranging from 3+ to 20+ i had really no idea which to buy. he told me to anyhow buy.. buy a anti-rust wan.. but all nvr say will rust anot leh.. end up.. i bought 1 that is priced in btw lor... hmm.. so weird.. anyway.. ya... have gt the long weekend to rest.. but monday, everything will go back to norm again.. have to listen to the motivating speeches by the principal and face the music!!! all my yuuckieee results! eeee!!!

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {9:33 AM}.
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Monday, March 20, 2006

block test battle with the maths demoness have lost! i bet i'll score badly la! so difficult... like wasted all my time practising the sums.... esp maclaurin series that i've spent super long hours practising..... can't even get the rite result!!!!

'Quest 9 to 5' is waiting for me in june or is my butt ready for the school to kick me out? i dunno! but for sure, i'm gonna spend more time on econs le....

hope i can win the battle against econs monster!!!

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {8:30 PM}.
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Saturday, March 18, 2006

happy birthday sin yee!!! :)

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {8:52 AM}.
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Friday, March 17, 2006

previously before march hols, principal invited some peeps over to the lt for some "motivational talk" ya... he shared with us his GREAT Plans for us. he will monitor our block test results.. if we dun do well... we jolly well cancel all our outings and fun during june hols cos he will wan us back in school to study from 9 to 5 daily! "SHIIIOOOOOKKK aHhhhh...." this is if the principal feels that the student still got hope..etc but for students that they feel is hopeless, then........ bye! off to year one u go! as for me.... if i do badly, den i guess i'll be kicked outta school!! ("GREAT") anyway.. i've gt the warning letter for late coming already.. it also mentioned that one more time i come to sch late, off i go as well! so......... i'm in a damn dangerous spot!

Just Finish my CLA block test today!! 6 hours for writing and scribbling CHINESE!!! *shrieks!* backaches man! flu still haven't recover... used up 4 packets of tissue today!!! sux... now my right side of my nose bleed instead of left side.... gosh! :(

Tml sinyee celebrating her birthday... she gonna have a bbq... really wanna go... but..... monday is the KILLER PAPER!!!! Maths n the most impt wan.... GP!!! "fail gp, u fail everything!!" maybe try to drop by for a while.... nt sure.. cos travel takes time too... :( *sobx*

GREAT!!! MAths Paper!!! i love it man!! *yewks!*

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {8:10 PM}.
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

congrats to geraldine, adriano n renfred!!!!! u guys got into the next round of campus superstar! love u all lots la! think u guys are really cute n cool!!! have all the x factor to be a superstar!!! jiayou!!

i shall not be blogging le... cos....

Principal: "the block test shall be a basis for me to see ur academic performance."

so..........
i shall stop!!! be back after block test!!! :)

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {10:04 AM}.
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Sunday, March 05, 2006

1st march
my 04 frens got their a levels results... mrs ho came back to present result slips of students who had obtain 4 distinctions n above.. everyone cheered hard for her appearance..( see?? so popular among students... unlike.... *coughs*) anyway.. ya.. just as expected.. IVAN was the top student!!! with 8 distinctions..!!! *drools* i can nvr get that results la! i think 1 distinction is already like extinct for my case lor.. lols! aniwaes.. my 04s6c classmates..!! u guys did not bad le... esp my ying ru lao pa who gt AAB *cheers n applause* congrats!!!! :) :) :) david ar... u gotta pull urself up when u are at overseas uni kies? :) aniway.. majority of the peeps gt ABC which is not bad too... miss u peeps so much la! but there are also depressing n demoralising moments which i saw amongst the grads.. ppl who are unable to get into uni and people who had done not bad yet failed their gp... that disturbs me quite abit.. cos.. i think next year, when i'm back to get my results.. i think i'll be one of those who are crying... *aww....*

2nd march
today have CT lesson at the hall... principal showed JC2s a list of students with not bad grades (O lvls) entering into NY and their grades now.. (A lvls) okies... the first person on the list is a student who had L1R5 10 and had A1,E,O,X.. from what i know.. i guess this person is david lars.. thou he nvr show the name... but ya.. wad the principal say really disturbs me lots... he say that the student is expected to perform much better than what he is actually obtaining now. X means absent.. principal say that he wun accept the student back if the student wants to repeat JC2 here... he say because the student CHICKEN OUT for one of the paper. he couldn't accept that NY produces AYAM BRAND students... how can a principal say this kinda stuff about students... this is really too mean okies... ( not because i noe that the student is my fren.. but i really think heis being real mean..) den the principal proceed on saying that the peeps on the list cannot go into uni.. den if they wanna look for a job outside, nobody will wanna employ them and end up, they will have to sell tissue paper along orchard road... (c'mon.. wad's this? with O lvl results, i can get a job as a cashier at kino lor!) this is like really mean la... fine... when why are students coming to jc for? if they go jc n they can't enter uni and they haf to sell tissue at orchard in the end, why not they sell like now? before they even enter a school after their o lvl results? this is not even abit motivating!! the principal says that he feels ashame for the peeps in the list.. hey! how can u be so sure that they din try at all? i hope the principal can reflect on what he is gonna say to students... cos... his speech do affect students alot..!!! i get mentally abused by his speech...

3rd march
morning, PE teacher say that students are allowed to play or do sports in half-u now.. it is a gd news.. (supposingly!! until our principal had his speech done again!!!) he say that he thought only pri sch kids will sweat in full-u.. he din noe that jc students do so as well. he say that this will affect NY's sch image in front of the public.. when students sweat in full-u and take public transport home, they will stink the bus and all the passengers in the bus will faint... (c'mon.. there's no such thing is all the passengers will faint just because of the sweaty smell okies??!) he mention that we can use the free time to revise our work..etc than to make ourselves sweaty... (c'mon.. please dun restrict our lives so much will u? are we just a slave or machine to just score in academic? to u, students can't do any other stuff than just studying?? we will go crazy all day with just books in our mind!! den he remind us again of the list of students ytd he show us during our CT lesson at the hall... he say the peeps in the list are selfish..etc they score so badly, will affect our school's average academic performance... (the statistics..) this time round, he dunwan to have such students who will pull down the percentage.. so he will take the block test nx week as a basis.. students who do not perform well, he wun hesitate to make them drop to year 1 and he will wan to make these people come back everyday during june hols from 9 to 5, attendance will be taken.. they will study in school. they will not be allowed to go for hols, ccas...etc see??? students = study machines againz! so demoralising!! :( dun like to hear principal talk.... *freaks*

.-PoNdErEd.UpoN.wiV.TeArs.@. {4:20 PM}.
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